“Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting;
The Soul that rises with us, our life's Star,
Hath had elsewhere its setting
And cometh from afar;
Not in entire forgetfulness,
And not in utter nakedness,
But trailing clouds of glory do we come
From God, who is our home:
Heaven lies about us in our infancy!"
Since I regularly fellowship with God, I have often wondered what it was like for Adam and Eve to walk in the garden when the world was new and unblemished, talking with their Creator in a personal way as a father to a child might while walking in the park. I have had many good times of fellowship with God, especially lately as I walk a few times a week at the local park, enjoying the bright autumn colors and the cooler weather, speaking to Him as I walk alone (yet never completely alone as He is always with me). Nonetheless, I can’t help but wonder what it would be like to have a stronger sense of His physical presence, to know that He is there in body as well as spirit. I guess these are all questions that I might get to ask Him when I am in His presence forever on the other side of this veil, if He has not already put all such knowledge within me as I enter that world. Paul suggested in 1 Corinthians 12:13 that we would have such fullness of knowledge when we were in God’s presence: “For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.”
For now, though, it is enough for me to know that these four things are always true, every day and every second of every day: (1) He loves me with an all-consuming love that is so powerful and pure that I will never be able to comprehend it, (2) He guides me with His wisdom as much as I let Him, (3) He empowers me to do His work when I turn to Him for help and spend time in His presence so that He can fill me with His Spirit, and (4) He is always with me, even if I can’t discern His presence sometimes. This last one is, I’m sure, one which everyone struggles with at some point in their lives, wondering whether He is really there. But as His Word promises many times, He will never leave us nor forsake us, regardless of whether we can feel or see His presence. God does not lie, and there is no lie within Him, so we can take Him at His word even when our thoughts and feelings try to tell us otherwise.
At the very least, He is always within each believer in Christ since His Holy Spirit was placed within us at the moment of our salvation as His seal of ownership (2 Corinthians 1:22).
I pray that you will walk in and be filled with His measureless, perfect, peace that passes understanding (Philippians 4:7).