Franklin reported, “I was surprised to find myself so much fuller of faults than I had imagined;...And I believe this may have been the case with many, who, having, for want of some such means as I employed, found the difficulty of obtaining good and breaking bad habits in other points of vice and virtue, have given up the struggle…”
Still, he found some comfort in the attempt to strive for something higher, seeing that he at least was more aware of his own personal flaws upon reflection and careful observation of his personal behavior: “But, on the whole, tho' I never arrived at the perfection I had been so ambitious of obtaining, but fell far short of it, yet I was, by the endeavor, a better and a happier man than I otherwise should have been if I had not attempted it…”
Personally, I think that it probably is a good thing to attempt to be a good person, consistently choosing the harder right over the easier wrong. But I am very skeptical of our own ability to figure out what is wrong with us and needs our attention. Most of us would either judge ourselves too harshly or too leniently in any given area. This is when we need to seek out God’s wisdom and ask Him to examine us and tell us what our flaws are. The Psalmist said it best: “Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts. And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting” (Psalm 139:23-24).
I pray that you would be guided by God in all your ways and that He would help you to know your flaws, your infinite worth in His eyes, and your immeasurable value to this world and to your part in God’s plans for you and for all of humanity.